I just got back home from the training shift at Cique Du Soleil, and man I am exhausted. It could be that I’m running on a few hours of sleep, it was hot and sunny today, I did a lot more walking around then usual lately, or simply learning make me tired haha.
But in all seriousness I’m really thankful for this opportunity and I can’t wait to start my first real shift tomorrow. On top of a pretty good first day at the circus I had my first sale over on my shop this morning, I woke up to a notification on my phone saying my Ilvermorny Professor Vest had sold.
On instagram and facebook I had briefly mentioned that I was both excited and nervous, and I still am. That hasn’t changed since this morning and it probably won’t change until after it arrives at its destination. Even then I’ll probably worry that it doesn’t meet the person’s standard. Like I’m pretty sure anyone shopping on etsy, especially for clothes, understand it’s all handmade and there for won’t be at chain store level. All handmade items have their flaws, but I like to think my work meets other people standards and that they enjoy the item as much as I enjoyed (despite making myself frustrated over nothing more then I’d like to admit) making it.
I know as time goes on and the more I make things, and the more sales I do, the more I can work on my work related self-esteem. It’s not from a lack of pride that I worry about these things. But more so from prior to following this dream of mine of running my own shop, all knitting and/or sewing I kept to myself or for family gifts. So pretty much anyone who got anything from me were people who might have been to polite to really saw anything if there was something…it was mostly my mother saying that I made things like sweaters to long because she’s pretty short so sleeves needed to be made shorter.
But I’m off to the post office so I can pick up a box to send out this vest before my shift tomorrow. I work at like 5pm so I have time to swing by before then since the actual sending parcels part of the post office is closed right now, but I can still get boxes and stamps and all that.